Spring Feelings

Yey! It's already Spring. Technically! Tomorrow is the official date for Spring and I am having a blast. The weather is lovely... 60 degrees... clear blue sky... spring-ish ambiance... snowless grounds... and spring-y scented breeze... what else could I ask for?

Well, I am still not over with Hubby's drama over the weekend and I am writing a letter to him right now. It has nothing to do with spring... the spring mood added some twist to my feelings right now though.

Dearest Sweetest,

Firstly, I want to apologize for being so mean to you last week. Though I can blame it to PMS... I will not use it as an alibi. I felt so guilty because I know I hurt your feelings. We argued a lot in the past on almost everything and I know that it's normal in any relationship. We do have conflicts every now and then due to different points-of-view or simply difference in cultural background and orientation. But last Friday... we had another argument and it turned ugly. I didn't expect your reaction because it was the first time that you didn't say anything or contradict what I was saying or even argue. You just kept quiet and let me speak my mind with no reservation. It was the very first time too that I saw you shed tears and still didn't say anything to defend yourself. I didn't know what to do when I saw your reaction so I just shut up because I knew it was the right thing to do then.

I wasn't able to sleep good that night thinking how bad I hurt your feelings and how cruel my words were to make you cry. I didn't even have the chance to apologize... say sorry because I was so ashamed of myself because normally when you hurt my feelings you were quick to make it up to me and say "sorry" instantly. I was really mean. I didn't even try to make it up to you. But I was surprised that you were able to forgive me even if I didn't ask for forgiveness. You were even sweeter to me when I got home the following day as if nothing happened and you even washed my laundry and folded them. And you do know how important it was to me. It was "huge" because you never have done that since we got married and you know that I was b*tching about it all the time. And we didn't even talk about the previous incident at all.

I don't know about you but I am just so glad that you are now beginning to see things in my perspective. I am so happy that despite the fact that you are kinda stubborn, you are doing your best to change and do the things you hate to do because you know that it will make me happy. And I do appreciate it.

And I appreciate how you made my birthday so special. I do appreciate the gift but more importantly... I love what you did in presenting the gift. The gift is kinda expensive and I didn't like it. Just for that part. I would be happy just for doing my dirty clothes and folding them was a big bonus. And that gift... it will surely spark another argument in the future due to budget issues... hahahaha but I will try to control myself this time and figure it out how to speak my mind without losing my self-control.

I'm really sorry Sweetest if I drive you nuts lately. I really don't mean to. But even if I do remember that I love you always. And don't ever forget that especially when I am PMS-ing. WINK***

Your Sweetie